I had a small slip-up - Went to a bar with my friend and a really hot ex. He wants to be friends with benefits...I admit that I kissed him Saturday night, BUT I didn't spend the night at his place. I was very proud of myself for not giving in!
i'm doing ok. i have to admit, i kissed a boy that i have a big crush, but i don't think he returns my feelings so im safe there. a friend is also trying to fix me up with his cousin that i met a few weeks ago. he called this weekend and i haven't called back yet. i think i'll talk to him and maybe even hang out with him. if its great, i'll see him again, if not im not going to force it.
Well Ladies, I have been doing ok. No dates. I have chatted with my ex. He wanted to come over but i din't fall for that one again. So so far so good. I think this is a mind over matter thing. If you do things to get it off of your mind then it doesn't matter. I have been staying really busy. Some of my girlfriends and I are having wine night. this is our 2nd one. We have them on Wed. eve. We have 5 different wines to taste...then about 3 we really like to guzzle...lol...food...and just plain fun. Come on ladies...we can do this. This is about learning to enjoy being with ourselves. Its not an easy thing to do...but at some point we have to right!?! I wish you all well.
(I am not on a self-imposed ban, but either the universe is sending me a message or the fact that I've been telling guys I'm moving out of state in two weeks is a major turnoff!)
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Okay I have been doing okay too ,for the most part.
I have been talking with this really sweet guy, we are just friends now but I get the feeling he wants more.We have been friends for 3 months(pre-ban) so I don't feel I should end our friendship.
I will admit I flirted a little with him.
Anyway that's all for now. Good to see I am not alone on making a minor slip up.
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Okay, I suppose I'll add to my 'I suck at this' comment.
Stupid text messaged me the other day. And really, I could care less. He asked how I was doing, I said, great and you and he proceeded to tell me that he was out with some girl. And you know what? I didn't care. I didn't respond and I went about my day. Yay for me!
Here's where the 'I suck at this' comes in....
I've been hanging out with a guy friend (we are just friends...for now anyway). However, he has a live-in girlfriend who he has complained about since the day I met him. And apparently for a good year before I met him, according to other people who have known him longer. It's clear that he's in a situation with her where it's just easier to stay together (in the short term) than it is to break up (kind of like me and Stupid). In the long run, he knows he needs to get out, but he's dragging his feet. I've seen them together and it's pretty clear that he isn't into her.
Anyway, long story short--- most people who see us together think that we're dating. I'm pretty sure he's got feelings for me and I'm really trying to hold back mine b/c I will not allow him to cheat on his girlfriend with me. But, that's getting harder by the day.
So, that's why I suck at this dating ban thing. Grrrrr.
Kenzie! Cool! Very cool about stupid! That is huge! And I cannot believe he tried that - such blatant manipulation is complete bs...
Anyway, I suck because I want my ex back. And because twice I've been hanging out with people I'm not dating and people thought we were. And because I set up an informational interview and the guy thought it was a date (also, he was playerish about it, which is even worse). And because the two date requests I got last week I just sort of hemmed and hawed - I can't say NO. I think I date so much because I'd rather go once, then let it drop, than turn them down up front. And that's not so healthy.
Ha! I'm bad. I lasted a couple of weeks. Ah well. At least I managed not to overlap this time...
Anyway, I went to Las Vegas on business. Ended up hanging out with a guy I met at the food show, we got along really well. It was totally platonic, but at some point in the evening things changed a bit, and anyway, he ended up driving me to the airport on Sunday, and he's meeting me for lunch on Tuesday! Too bad he's moving down to San Diego in a month... Sniff sniff. It's always weird to see someone you met on a trip back on your home turf...Tuesday should be interesting.