Friday afternoon we are putting my dog to sleep. He has been in our family since I was 4 years old. Within in the last month he has lost a lot of weight and can’t walk very well on his own. He is having a hard time getting up to go to the bathroom, so he is wearing a diaper.
He is 20 years old and has had a long happy life. I know that putting him to sleep is the right thing to do, but it just feels so wrong. I feel so guilty about it. I can’t stop crying, I can’t get any sleep even though I am exhausted. I don’t feel like eating- I have lost about 6 lbs. I constantly feel like I am having a panic attack. This sucks so bad.
I can’t imagine not seeing him everyday. I don’t remember a time when he didn’t live with us. It just never seemed like this day would come. We have a few other animals pass, but Spence has survived them all. I hate that we are putting him to sleep because he has old. It doesn’t feel right. Our other animals have been sick- 1 dog died from surgery complications, another dog had bone cancer and my cat passed away because he was sick. I feel like we are killing him for no reason. He isn’t sick, just old. He has been so healthy his whole life I feel like we need to give him a chance to get better, but I know that is won’t.
I have been trying to sleep for about 3 hours because I have to get up early Friday and volunteer at an elementary school- great. I thought maybe if I got off my chest I could sleep better. Thanks for letting me vent.
Spencer when he was a few months old
This is him a couple years ago trying to get into garbage cans at my brother's house.
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I'm so sorry to hear that. I know this is must have been a very hard decision but I think you're doing what is probably best for him. It sounds like he has had a full and wonderful life with you guys. You'll always have him in your heart and in your memories. Again though, I am very, very sorry to hear that.
Oh, Ryan, that sucks! I've been in your situation before and it's always hard. Pets are so much like members of the family.
I know there's not much I can say that would make you feel better, but you guys are doing the right thing. Since he's lost weight, can't control his bladder, and has a hard time walking, it sounds like you guys are sparing him the pain that's inevitable by letting him go peacefully.
I'll be thinking of you this afternoon and sending good thoughts your way. I'm sorry about Spence.
Putting a dog down is such a difficult choice to make. I pray I don't have to make that decision some day for my little doggies. But at least we have the option of letting them go peacefully and with dignity.
Is Spence a poodle mix? I had three growing up that lived to be 16, 19 and 21. My family faced this decision three times, and even though it was clear each time that this was the right thing to do, it still hurts.
I'm so sorry Ryan. I had to make that decision last year with my cat who had kidney failure and was on IVs. He was suffering at the time and we just couldn't let him suffer any more. It is such a hard decision to make but you are doing what's best. Think about his quality of life. Its quickly deteriorating. Plus you don't want to feel guilty if he gets really bad and does start suffering and you don't know.
That sucks. I remember how hard that decision was to make when we put my dog to sleep. You are doing the right thing, even though it's such a hard thing to do. It sounds like you know you're saving him from a lot of pain and suffering and are doing what's best for him. Sending good thoughts your way. . .
I'm so sorry RyanJ!! I was with my mom when she had to make the decision to put her dog to sleep, its not an easy one to make. I'll be thinking of you and Spencer today and sending you good thoughts.
Oh Ryan, I'm so sorry to hear this. I went through this 2 years ago w/my poodle. He lived to be 20 years old too, but got to the same point - couldn't get up out of his bed, barely lifted his head anymore, would barely touch food and had no control of his bladder. It was the hardest decision my family ever had to make, I mean we had him 20 years - since I was 4, but he was in misery and you could tell. I too was wondering if your dog is a poodle mix - seems they live a long time. It was really hard and I cried a lot for a long time, but you're doing the right thing. You're putting him out of his pain and he'll thank you for that.
We have an urn of my dog's ashes up on our fireplace at my parents to remember him by. I also keep a picture of him on my desk at work and at home. Once you get past the hard part, you'll remember all the good things w/a smile.
He's a good, long life. Hang in there, I promise it will get better and hurt less. PM me if you need to talk sweetie.
I'm sorry your dog isn't doing well. It's the right thing to do though. You've been more than lucky to have him for so long.
My family had to make that decision 5 years ago with our dog too. It was for the best because she was suffering, but there was still that youthful look in her eyes that made us feel so guilty for what we were doing. But if we had waited any longer it would have been unfair to our dog.
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RyanJ, it's a day I so fear for our own dog. He's very healthy at nine years old, but I often wonder how I could handle losing him. I couldn't.
I think I can empathize, and I am so sorry you have to go through this. Dogs are more than pets, they are constant companions who never judge us and only want to give and receive love. They are so pure and simple. I hope you can find some peace in knowing you are not ending your old puppie's life so much as ending the pain and suffering. Your dog is trying to hide all the pain and suffering (as I'm sure you know) but is probably in a constant state of misery. You love him so much you are doing what is probably one of the hardest things you have to do for his own greater good.
I'm so sorry, Ryan. Putting a pet to sleep is such a hard thing to do, and I really feel for you. It'll get easier soon, and he will be at peace. Hugs to you, Ryan!
I am so sorry RyanJ. Your post brought tears to my eyes. You are doing the right thing and ending his suffering. It sounds like you & and your family gave him an amazing life.