STYLETHREAD -- LET'S TALK SHOP!

Just wanted to give you ladies an update on me.  You have all been so supportive in my process of healing emotionally, physically, mentally, and financially that not only do I want to keep you posted but I also want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for being the constant support that I needed. 

I haven't shared too much with my "social" friend about my situation and only really talk to my very close friends and family about things that have to do with my health, my well being, and my boys well being.

Anyhow, I struggled a lot through the winter months.  My depression was once again holding me back from living life and enjoying anything.  Fortunately, I was able to get through those rough months without any major catastrophes.  Things began to calm down around February for me in terms of having my retirement, life insurance, disability insurance, health insurance, etc. under control. For a while I thought the paperwork, phone calls, and emails were going to be never ending. 

There have been several changes in my medications these past few months and I believe that we may possibly have found a combination that is working for me (knock on wood).  I was honestly becoming very discouraged and desperate because it seemed like most of the meds were making me physically ill.  The side effects of these things can be horrendous!  So, I am praying that I continue to improve and that my
doctor is given the wisdom and insight to be able to help me.

My oldest son has moved back home with me.  He has really been the positive energy that his brother and I needed.  It's really nice to have my family together again.

3 weeks ago I had to have a double tongue biopsy.  Most painful and scariest experience I have had in a very long time.  Thankfully the results were benign.  Turned out I just needed some antibiotics to clear up the infection.  Phew!

I then had to go in for an ultrasound after my annual exam.  They found a cyst and fibroids but no surgery will be needed at the moment.  I need to get another complete check-up and ultrasound in 12 months.  Once again, dodged the bullet!

I went in to see my regular doctor back on April 19. I was highly concerned about my blood pressure, thyroid, increasing weight, etc. So he ordered a bunch of blood-work(which all turned out to be normal) and encouraged me to cut 500 calories from my intake a day in order to lose around 5 pounds a month.  Well...I am happy to report that it has been working!!!!  In August 2011, I  was at my heaviest ever at 257.  Not good.  When I had my initial appointment on the 19th I was at 247.  On April 30th when I went back to the doctor I was at 242. And as of today(5-29-12) I am 230.  I know the 12 pounds I lost this month was a lot, but I am very realistic in that I know the reason I lost so much was because of my surgery. I was unable to eat anything for several days and it was very difficult to even get to the recommended 1200 calories a day that in general woman should eat.  Regardless though, I am soooo happy but once again haven't really shared this with anyone because I find that some people aren't genuinely happy for you and tear you down every chance they get.  Besides I am not doing it for any of them.  I am doing it for myself and my kids.  I'm sure you can figure out the numerous reasons why. My next goal is to start working out again.  I now have 80 pounds more to go, at least.  Oh my gosh, I just realized I shared my weight with you girls!!!!! Hahahaha...

Overall, I have been busy keeping house, taking care of things I neglected for so many years, crafting, being a typical mom, going to the never ending doctor visits for me and my kids, juggling my younger son's extremely busy schedule, doing what I can to help others (paying it forward still), and just trying to live in the moment and enjoy it for all it is.  My life is by no means perfect but I do feel that my outlook on life is much brighter and for someone like me that is a huge accomplishment!

Thanks so much for listening and being there for me.  I know that my progress in becoming healthier is a combination of many, many things like great doctors, no stress from work, a steady income, medication, the wonderful weather, a change in attitude and perspective, the list goes on and on, but most importantly the love and support shown by the people that care like my family, friends, and of course you girls...my Stylethread family.

<3 xoxoxo<3

Nancy