I rarely post in this section because I rarely feel hurt or anything by a boy and that's the main reason I would post here I guess. Well, I don't know if any of you remember how I loved to Arkansas for a job and my bf at the time came to visit me, but after leaving he sent me the Berger post it note message through a text. We didn't talk for awhile and I dated someone else. I never alowed myself time to get over him because I think I mainly felt if he would do that to me he wasn't worth it. Well I wish I could remember what caused me to stop hate, I really do. But, we started talking again on AIM and then on the phone. He has been nice and sweet and knows I still like him. I never let my guard down, but since him and I were together for so long I guess I thought I could. Well this past weekend he offered to fly me down to see him and go out with our mutal friends. We also talked on the phone and laughed and joked this past week. Okay, so today we talk after not talking this weekend and he says he feels like I am pushing him to be in a relationship (which is not what I mean to do). He says he can't have a relationship (his job is 100 % travel) and he doesn't want me to get the idea that anything is going to happen. So now I'm really confused. I don't really know what I should do. I still love him and I hate that I do. I wish I was over him, but I just can't seem to.
Mainly, I think I just wanted to type this out. I hate boys sometimes. I can't wait til I am married and I don't have to deal with all the 'single sh*t'.
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grr boys. The only way i've ever gotten over someone like that is to stop talking to them. It takes time and its hard when the boy just doesn't GET THAT. Plus its so easy to relapse when you start talking to them again, because you don't REALLY feel like you got over them. But in time I think you'll see that he really wasn't perfect for you in the long run, and if he is, things will work themselves out later. You are probably lonely and upset because you've dated someone else but still like the first guy. Its ok- you were with the first guy for a long time. And be careful what you wish for- if the first guy said, ok, i DO want you to be my gf, would you actually want that? He's already made you doubt him, the Berger note is disturbing, and he travels all the time. I think you already know that he's not treating you the way you want to be treated, regardless of whether the chemistry and memories are still there. Good luck- and what happened with the second guy btw?
You know whats sad and so much like all those girls I hate- i think I would get back together. Okay, after saying it, sounds ridiculous. He has some issues (he lost his mom 2 years ago) and althought that doesn't give him a right to act the way he does I understand why he does some things.
2nd boy and I just didn't have the chemistry thing. He started getting on my nerves- never a good thing!!
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