Ok this is terrible, but I am so excited for my boyfriend to go out of town!! I know I have to break up with him I just have not brought myself to do it quite yet, but next weekend is going to be so fun, I am so excited!! Wednesday he leaves and me and my girl are going shopping for new makeup and going out dresses, we are going to go out that night at a local dive bar with a bunch of friends, I work the next couple days and then Friday, my friends and I are going out for my birthday to a fancy trendy resy=taurant, and then dancing!! Saturday, I have the day off to relax, maybe go get a pedi/mani or something and then I am meeting up with a few of my old high school friends I have not seen in ages, including my old highschool crush, Trevor!! The cool thing about it is My best friend Amanda, saw him a few weeks ago and he asked her about me asking if I was as hot as I used to be and he was saying he wished he had gotten with me when he had the chance, I was realy pumped, he never acted like he liked me then... Anyway, I have got ot make sure I look hot and I'm just so excited to go out a bunch and not have anyone to question wherw I am going, etc. I feel so bad that I am so excited he is leaving town, but I feel like I am sort of trapped if hes home and I am going out. He gets really angry at me and right now I feel like I just want to be single. It's weird because I have never felt like this, but I am also just starting to go out on my own and see what is out there. I think that because I feel the way I do, it's obvious I need some time on my own.