I'm a couple of months into my first real job, well its actually a fellowship program where I am gaining on the job experience and being mentored. During this time Ive noticed some things about myself and how im dealing with a job.
I am a perfectionist at heart, and always try to do my best at whatever I do, but when I make a mistake or don't do as well as expected I get down on myself. In school, you know how well your doing based on grades, but in the real world its a little different. Im not the type of person to worry what other people think, but i find at my job that I really want to do well, be successful, and impress the people mentoring me. And therefore, always worrying if im making a bad impression or doing something wrong.
Does anyone ever feel like this at their job, or is it just because Im just starting out? And any advice on how to get over this.. because at the end of the day, I know I can't control what others think, and all i can do is my best.
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"Deep down you may still be that same great guy I used to know. But it's not who you are underneath, it's what you do that defines you" Rachel Dawes, Batman Begins
Working in a business environment will eventually suck any idealistic desire for perfection right out of your soul.
Just kidding. Sort of. I don't think you're expected to be doing everything perfectly. You have only been there a couple of months. After 90 days it's fair to ask for a performance review, which will set your mind at ease and give you specific areas for improvement if any is needed.
Maybe it would help to decide whether you're more worried for your own behalf or for theirs. If it's more about what they think, you can fix it by communicating/asking for direction. If it's your own internal dialogue telling you you're not doing well enough, then that's an issue that probably exists outside of work too.