Today I outdid myself. Premise: the machine I work with, which has been down for months and is now working, suddenly stopped functioning. That means, no work for at least 2 days, and thats no good in this moment. I got so upset that I was having a hard time hoding my tears.
At this point, this guy (the "hot" guy here around) walks in looking for his friend (who wasnt there). He asks me why I am upset, and I burst into tears like a little girl! And I wasnt able to stop! He was there, trying to calm me down, ANd I was saying " I am sorry, I am sorry". He actually was very nice, saying "I whish I could help you with that. Just go home and relax...".
At this point another colleague walks in and finds me there in tears and the guy standing there, and he seemed very confused, said 2 words and left.
God how stupid I feel. The best part is that the stupid machine started working again for no reason! Hate it, I want to throw it against the wall! Later I sent the second guy an e-mail explaining that its an allergic reaction I get every time my machine doesnt work
How do I hold myself next time? I didnt have time to run lock myself in the bathroom.
The worst part, I keep laughing if I think about the whole ting!
oh ico, i'm sorry--that stupid machine! don't worry about it, you had a human reaction and the guy seemed really nice about it so whatever. i'm sure they all know you're a great worker. i wouldn't give it a second thought, we've all had breakdown moments (just the other day i started tearing up watching sarah mclaughlan's world on fire video) and the fact that you had one over a machine at work means you are a very dedicated employee! besides, now you and the hot guy have bonded, at least on a platonic/comrade level so see something positive came out of that stupid machine breaking down