Sorry this is in purple and the letters are so large but I typed this in my email than I copied it over here.
The day has come H is moving out tomorrow. I have done alot of soul searching since my last post in Dec. Reading wicked's post made this a little easier to come to terms with.Thank you wicked for the pm's it really meant alot to me. It helped me realize that I can not lie to myself or H any more. This is not easy to admit and I still feel I broke my vowels to H and God. Confession: I do not love H like I did when we first got married in fact, I have come to learn that he gave me what I was missing from my first husband. He did not try to change me, he let me be myself, there was no abuse. He helped me heal my broken sprit. I will always care for him and he will have a specail place in my life and heart. This was very hard to tell H and I feel like shit for hurting him. Although he has done his part on hurting me and letting me down. We have talked to Chris about H staying at Grandma's while we work out adult promblems. So far he has taken it well, but I don't think it really has sunk in. Iam worried how it will effect him emotionally . H told me he is worried how all the family members are going to take it. I told him that I know its to devastate(sp?) them and I feel aweful but I can not worry how they are going to feel anymore. I have to do what is right for me.I have held off to long worrying about everyone else feelings. The only one Iam going to focus on is Chris he is my main concern. Thanks ladies for listening and always being supportive.
I'm sorry you have to go through this. From everything you've ever written though, it really sounds like you're doing the right thing. I hope your family is as supportive for you as they should be. You're doing the right thing to make sure that yours and Chris's future is what it should be.
NCshopper wrote: I'm sorry you have to go through this. From everything you've ever written though, it really sounds like you're doing the right thing. I hope your family is as supportive for you as they should be. You're doing the right thing to make sure that yours and Chris's future is what it should be.
I am sorry you are having to deal with all of this, but hopefully it will be a new start for you once things have had a chance to calm down. Please email me if you need anything.
NCshopper wrote: I'm sorry you have to go through this. From everything you've ever written though, it really sounds like you're doing the right thing. I hope your family is as supportive for you as they should be. You're doing the right thing to make sure that yours and Chris's future is what it should be.
Big 'ol hugs to you. As you focus on Chris remember yourself too. The best way to help Chris is to be good to yourself and take care of yourself. No matter what you do the kids reflect how you feel. Don't let yourself fall into my situation.
Thanks for all your support. I just need to stay out of the shopping section b/c I won't be able to shop for a while Rent will be coming out of my check now.
I'm sorry to hear you are going through tough times right now. Based on the tone of your email, it sounds like you are ready and commited to be happy. I admire your strength!
Wishing lots of strength and wisdow during this time.
I'm sure, in your heart, you did the right, so now you can focus on you and Chris. Just stay strong, things will be OK. We're all here if you need us. And hey - it's OK to window shop....
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