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Dizzy · Marc Jacobs

Need inspiration...

kenzie · Chanel

Okay, Dizzy, I'll try.

Heaven knows that things sucked for me for a few years just out of college. Up until that time, anything that I had tried for (from the time I was a little kid), I got, whether it was a part in a show, an award for sports, getting straight A's, graduating with honors, winning a two national marketing awards before I graduated from college, getting the internships, getting the guy, having great friends, etc, etc, etc.

And then I graduated from college.

And I couldn't find a job. I really felt like I was a moron and completely worthless because it was the first time in my life that my efforts weren't paying off (or so I thought). Then I dated a string of idiots (but you already knew that) and that just added to my misery. I worked in retail, which I despised, my creativity was squelched and I became more and more unhappy.

Then, just when I thought things couldn't get worse (I mean, I was suicidical--does it get worse than that?), I broke up with the guy I was planning to marry (Stupid), had to look for a place to live, roommates bailed out a few days before the move and because I was working at a lousy temp job, I couldn't afford a place on my own, so I was forced to move back to my hometown and into my mom's house. Awful.

But, I kept interviewing for jobs and I was offered, not just one, but two jobs in my field on the same day, within ten minutes of each other. I chose the better one. I've been there for about 9 months; I love it. I spend everyday indulging my creativity. I'm recognized for it. My co-workers know that I'm intelligent. And, I just moved into my own place last weekend and D is back in the picture (you remember him, right?). Oh, and I no longer talk to Stupid.

I'm sitting in my own living room right now, on my own couch that I bought with the money I earned from my job that I love and I'm smiling like an idiot as I post this because I'm proof that things can and will turn around.

Hang in there, Dizzy!!

blubirde · Chanel

Oh, Dizzy, I know exactly where you're coming from. I hate to sound like a broken record but seriously - it's law school. Before I went to law school I thought I was at least fairly intelligent. After I got there, no more. Everyone was smarter, everyone was making better grades, studying more, getting better job offers, etc. There's nothing like being in such a competitive atmosphere to make you feel like an idiot.

Let me add to that by saying that you're probably living in a fishbowl right now. It's the same people, the same situations, and the same experiences reliving themselves with different people and different settings. Everything seems warped from inside a fishbowl.

It took me about a year after I graduated law school before I started to regain a little bit of my confidence back, both in my personal, professional, and intellectual life. The farther I get away from that environment, the more I realize how f**ked up that world was and how glad I am to be away from it.

So anyway, I don't know if law school is the reason you're feeling like you are but I can assure that it's not helping any. As for your prof job, that sucks. Is there any way you can go talk to them in person? Is it worth it?

As for floundering right now, just know that this too shall pass. It's a cliche but it's true. The hard part is just getting through it. You can do it. Hang in there.

Dizzy · Marc Jacobs

Thanks guys - it was just a bad weekend. Work is always the one thing I can do. So to actually be fired for doing a bad job just threw me for a real loop. It was like finding out I can't play the piano anymore or something. I thought, "This skill that I've always had is gone, oh no!" (And I have no other skills that apply to law school, and I'm six figures in debt!)

But really, if I had to write an article with someone who was as scattered and agressive as this prof (and I like her, she's a nice person, she just feels entitled to be completely disorganized and difficult because of the system she's in) anyway, if she were someone I'd encountered in the real world, I would have refused to work with her because it obviously wasn't goign to go well after the first time she couldn't remember who I was or what she had asked me to do... So it was my fault for trying to stick it out. I just wanted to be good at something in law school, and thought I could handle anyone.

So really, it's my own fault and shit happens. Thanks for cheering me up! Y'all are totally the best!!!!