So my ex (which we kinda ended sometime Nov/Dec) finally moved out on Wednseday night. We had a long discussion and both very sad. It would have ben 6 yrs last month. zto top it off yesterday was his birthday and I am really the only person he has. I took him to dinner and got him a gift. Told him to just stay over since it was late. Plus he's not done moving his stuff out - and we can't completely cut each other out of our lives. But he left in the middle of the night and left me a note with all the things he could say. he loves me the same as yesterday and thanks for today cuz he I would have no idea how much needed me today... It's just soooo dfficult for me. I know it was my choice and my decision and I have made him more sad and hearbroken a hundred times more than i feel.
I've been with him since i was 20. we really are each other's first true love. our love was so intense and passionate. loving each so deeply and painfuly. i really have never experienced this kind of pain before and i don't know what to do.
i mean this process of actually breaking up has been for sooo long - at least a year. i thought i was ready to move on. i've been dating and everythig but now i just can't believe the pain i feel inside and the loss of everything i thought we were gonna have - like he said - we always thought "we're supposed to be with each other"
thanks for letting me vent - i really just need to pour my feelings out
I'm sorry you are going through this vivi. breaking up is hard to do especially when its with someone that was a part of your life for soooo long. I've read your other posts and I think what is making it so hard is that yall were still living together and you never got a true break from him after breaking up until now. I think some time alone now without him around will do wonders for you.
I'm here for you if you want to talk. You can pm me any time. I just went through something similar to this last year.
I've been there, girl. That sucks. I'm so sorry. The only words of advice I can give you are to distract yourself as much as you can. Time does heal this wound, as trite as that sounds, it's true. Give yourself plenty of time and distance away from him. The hardest part is right now, if that's any consolation at all.
(((hugs))) I hope you feel better soon. Feel free to vent here anytime you want.
Oh hon, I'm so sorry. I know you've been broken up for awhile now, but it sounds like the reality of it is really starting to hit. That's not a fun feeling.
Just remember to take things slow and you WILL get through this. Life will go on and some day you'll meet someone that's better suited for you. Until then, hang in there!!! (((hugs)))
It's true, time will heal your wound. And you are going through the worst of it now -- slowly but surely, you are going to feel better. Since your breakup was drawn out for so long it's natural that now, when he's finally moved out, the reality is really hitting hard and painfully. But take your time, and be sure to give yourself the time and space from your ex to heal. It's the only way to really get over this and get back to yourself. Keep yourself busy, and stay strong!