STYLETHREAD -- LET'S TALK SHOP!

I hope yall don't mind me venting/whining a little bit.  I just being an emotional baby and don't have anyone to talk to about it right now.

For the past 2 weeks I've had this crazy work schedule and haven't been on the same client for any period of time.  I'm constantly having to try to quickly learn about the client and the team that is usually there and what I'm suppose to do in the 2 days or 4 days I'm going to be there which can be overwhelming and stressful.  I'm use to being on a client for a few months at a time, having areas to work on and knowing what i'm doing, knowing who I'm working with and how they work, knowing the client, etc.  And now I'm just feeling like I'm completely lost at work and I don't have a normal "home". 

I'm also upset about the fact that I came to the Houston office to work in Oil & Gas and I'm on one client that is a Public (SEC Traded) O&G client but when I'm not on them I'm stuck doing these tiny private companies which is not what I wanted to do.  Its hard to explain but there is a huge difference to me on the type of work and the work environment between the two and I can see it but my friends and my bf who have never had to work on one of these clients thinks I'm overreacting and they just don't understand.  I just feel like when I'm on the private client I am more micromanaged and closely watched by the client(because of the high rates we charge) and my team (because they are being pressured by the client) which is frustrating and we aren't suppose to be letting the company tell us what to do and basically that's what happens here. My immediate boss on this client I'm on right now can't multitask which is driving me nuts as I sit here and type out this who knows how long post.  I just want to scream at him.  And tell him I hate working on this client with him but I know I can't do that. Plus I love 404 work (basically making sure companies have internal controls in place to prevent fraud and deception by the employees) and these tiny companies don't have any of that and they don't follow 404 at all so my main area of enjoyment doesn't even exist.

I'm just getting frustrated with the situation and then having meltdowns at home over it all and I just don't know who to talk with or what to do. This is really the first time I've ever cried about this job and it just saddens me.  I love my job most of the time.  I'm also excited about this summer because I've been assigned the biggest client to work on for 3 whole months (which I was dying to get to do) but in the mean time I get my main client and then these crappy small clients which makes me cry and next fall I am scheduled to go back to one. 

They assign us coaches at work for things like this but I have a coach who is really busy so its hard to talk to her when I have a problem.  We are also assigned Partner buddies but I can't go to him because he's a busy partner and also because he's the partner on this job that I really despise and want to find a way off of before March.  I'm suppose to go to lunch next week with a girl I work with who has been her a while longer and I'm going to see what she suggests but its just trying to make it through this week without having another meltdown.

Then I'm still upset over the CPA exam.  I know I should just let it go and study for the next one in January but I've never failed at anything in my life and that is just killing me.  Plus now I'm doubting myself with the other one I'm waiting to hear back on thinking I must have failed it too. Its like a vicious cycle.

Thanks for listening.  I just don't know what to do or who to talk to.