Things have not been good lately with the bf. I can't pinpoint exactly what the problem is, but it just doesn't feel right anymore. I'm so unhappy in the relationship and I just want to run away. The best way I can sum up my feelings is by saying, 'I don't know what I want, but I know it's not this.' Maybe I'm just depressed b/c of my job situation and now it's coloring other aspects of my life. I also really, really want to move to the West Coast and he absolutely refuses to do so (won't even consider it, even though he's never been there). I can't imagine being stuck in PA for the rest of my life. The thought sickens me. I guess I just feel stuck right now and I don't know what to do. Sorry if this doesn't make any sense, I'm really upset and just needed to vent. Thanks for listening.
When did all this change? You guys seemed happy and you were positive 2 weeks or so ago.
Is he pissed about The Pig moving out? Is it his clutter issue? I thought he was ok about eventually going out west.
I know work sucks and you are miserable, and that comes back at home too, but have you guys talked? I really thought he was the one.
Can you guys come to some sort of a compromise? From what you said about him, besides his supporting The Pig, he sounds like someone worth keeping if possible.
Ally S, I thought he was the one, too. Maybe you're right and I'm just miserable with my job. I just feel stuck right now. My life is at a standstill. Probably doesn't help that I have raging pms right now. As for the moving west thing, he has an obsession with Vegas and would move there (so he says...we'll see). I have no problem moving to Vegas. I wouldn't be sick with my asthma, allergies and chronic sinus problems if we moved there. Might be nice to be able to breath for a change.
But anyway, we have just been fighting and I'm not sure why. I know that I'm miserable most of the time b/c of the stuck feeling I have, so maybe that's why. I don't know. And he's taking classes for his MBA and I wish that I could but that's not a possibility right now for various reasons and I guess that makes me jealous b/c he has a great career and good future and I have nothing and being with him is a constant reminder of that. I know I sound like a brat and I should be happy for him but I feel like such a loser. Sorry, I'm miserable right now.
Thanks for your thoughts, AllyS. My mom said basically the same thing and you're both right. PMS tends to cloud judgements sometimes. Things are much better today and once the Piggy moves out, things will be even better (the swine himself has even acknowledged this!). My friends and I had a girls' night out last night, which was also much needed, very theraputic and so much fun. So, yes, things are fine and I'm feeling much better.
We should definitely meet up for a few drinks once you are feeling better.